My view every morning...
I really don't know where to begin with this blog? Which is so not like me... I always have something to say and a unique way to say it but this trip was powerful and moved me in a way that is hard to define.God spoke to me on this trip and what he said make me think about many things I had not considered before. So, I will share some of my personal moments in Peru. These made an impact on me and my desire is for it to make one on you as well.
The first thing God told me was to stop trying to figure everything out myself. Next he told me to give up my will to him.To fall in line with his plans. To lose the many "selves" of myself. I understood what he was saying I have to die to my many "selves" or MY wants. We all have things we want in this life, a home, car, husband or wife, great job, or travel. What God said to me was to listen to his voice and wants for my life and to stop thinking about what I want to do for him and let him lead me to what he wants from me and where he wants me to go. Does anyone understand what I'm trying to say here? I know this Mission trip was where he wanted me because I once again felt at total peace and only that comes from God and following his path.
Sometimes I try so hard to listen to God or direct my life in the way that I think he wants me to go that I forget that I'm getting ahead of him and his desires for my life. This Mission School in Peru was so far removed from civilization that I was forced to rely on God's will for my life. I had so many quite hours with God. I wrote everyday and want to share some of that writing with you. I was at one with our creator and felt so blessed to be in that beautiful part of the country. Everyday we had different teachers and different subjects to learn. We had some very well traveled Missionaries to teach us about this world of God's and what to expect if we choose this life.
And every evening...
One Pastor moved me almost to tears but delivered an astonishing revelation... He spoke about us and used a bucket of water as an example. He stuck his hand in the water and then removed it. He said you could not tell where his hand had been but when it was there you could see it quite clearly and we were all like that, a light in the darkness for others to see. When we are gone who will take our place and become the light of God? He also said when God first called him to do Mission work the first place he sent him was to Mexico and he reveled that he had hated the Mexican people which his honesty shocked me! He said he cried everyday and asked God not to send him there but being obedient to God meant he must go and when he stepped off the plane and looked into the eyes of the Mexican people he still felt hatred but God spoke to him and said look into their eyes and he did and then God said if I loved them enough to die for them can you not love them enough to minister to them for me? He wept like a baby then and said yes he could... I was shocked by his honesty and humbled. I was guilty of the same. Sometimes there are people that are just too hard to love. I learned that there are horrible people in this world and we may never understand them or the choices they make but I also know when I look into their eyes I now see God and If he loved them enough to die for them, then I can Minister to them. I do not look at anyone the same since he preached those words.
That moved me to tears and I felt a change sweep over me. Now, every time I look into the eyes of someone I don't like or who makes me angry I remember and hear his words again and then I really look and that person. God didn't just die for me or my family, he died for us all even those who scorn him, mock him and don't believe in him. He died for us all and even though I knew this I don't think I had ever thought about it in quite this way. That was so powerful to me... Stop right now and turn to someone you don't know and look into their eyes and see that God loves them too and see if that doesn't change your perspective for just a minute. Or think about someone who maybe hurt you profoundly, or hurt someone you love deeply. Maybe they hate you just because you believe in God? When you look at them through the eyes of God you see something very different and I will never forget that message as long as I live.
Psalm 27:13 ~ I would have lost heart,unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living...
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