Sometimes life just wears you down and you feel paralyzed with grief, fear, pain, heartbreak or just overwhelmed with the burdens of this life .We have all felt lost at times in our life and can’t seem to hear the voice of God. We often feel like he has abandoned us but in truth it is us who have abandoned him. We get so caught up in our earthly trials that we don’t stop and listen for his voice. This is when we need it most and I’m guilty of this as well.
Some people in their pain and anguish turn to, alcohol, drugs or anything they can find to just take away their pain for a time. I'm guilty of this as well. When my marriage broke up I became a party girl for a brief time. It didn't take long for me to realize that was not the life I wanted and it only relieved the pain temporarily. Then I turned back toward God. That is when my true healing began. I wish I could say to all who are reading this that it was a miracle and my life changed overnight but it didn't. The first year was the longest year of my life. With a sense of renewed faith and perseverance I kept slowly healing.
My first Mission trip to Peru was the balm to my battered weary soul. When one woman of that country wrapped me in her most prized possession (an alpaca shawl) and gave it to me as a gift because she wanted to remind me that I would always be covered in God’s love. I broke down and wept with the joy that God had placed in my heart. It is true when you are in pain if you reach out to help others you in turn will be headed as well. I know because I felt it in Peru and will never forget the people or my time spent there.
I would love to say even now that I'm finally healed. But in reality I think the scars those years left on my soul will never be completely healed. I never thought that I would ever want to get married again. I never thought that I would let my guard down for fear of being wounded like that again. I have built barriers around my heart. I'm not sure anyone can truly get past their past without having issues.
We all go through tough times and for some of us it’s tougher than most. You just pick yourself up when you fall, dust yourself off and look around and find something to smile about. Maybe it’s as simple as the sun shining on your face, the touch of a baby’s hand in yours, the smile from a stranger, or just knowing the fact that this too shall pass and that tomorrow things will get a little easier. Just don't lose faith and remember faith makes things possible not easy.
God has told his people, "Here is a place of rest; let the weary rest here. This is a place of quiet rest." But they would not listen. Isaiah 28:12
This is what the LORD says: "Stop at the crossroads and look around. Ask for the old, godly way, and walk in it. Travel its path, and you will find rest for your souls. But you reply, 'No, that's not the road we want!' Jeremiah 6:16
To another faith by the same Spirit, to another gifts of healings by the same Spirit,
1 Corinthians 12:9
Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed; Save me, and I shall be saved. For you are my praise. Jeremiah 17:14
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