We are what we believe we are: C.S Lewis

My sisters Elizabeth, Nancy, my Mom, me and my sister Julie.

Do you ever question what your life could be like if you had the courage to be different, to change, reinvent yourself?


I know that there are times when I stand in the middle of the library and I sense that I’m screaming at the top of my lungs “this is not my life” and no one can hear me! Can anyone out there understand how I feel?

I’m proud of who I have become. But I know I can be MORE than what I am and I think God wants that from me.

I love being a mother and working with children. Taking care of them helps to heal the little girl inside of me.

The girl who thought she might die at 8 years old of cancer, the one who went hungry, the one her grandmother locked in a closet every time she was “Bad” and the one who heard her father beat her mother.

I grew up not comprehending the magnitude of what I was living through.

My mother had a mental breakdown when I was 12 years old. She was unable to even walk outside the house and she did not drive a car again until I was grown.

Her beautiful spirit had been broken…

My father was always gone and my older sister and I had most of the responsibility of taking care of our siblings and the home.

I learned very early in life to survive…

I did not know what death was but it frightened me. All I knew was that it must be awful because everyone was crying and hugging me. It took me years to overcome that fear.

I developed Claustrophobia because of the closet and it took me becoming an adult to overcome that. How I managed to overcome those things on my own even amazes me.

What can I do with all these lessons life has given me? How can I turn them into positives?


I'm a very optimistic person and always see the glass half full. I always look at the hardships life has handed me and try to learn from them. I try to become a better person in spite of what has happened to me.


One of the greatest gifts God has given me is the ability to forgive others. I can only say that this does come from God. I never hold on to grudges and become bitter.

In fact until my divorce those emotions were foreign to me. It was during that time that I first experienced bitterness and rage. That was why I blogged about everything, to get rid of all of that pain. I did not want that dark creature living inside of me. I'm a child of light not darkness.

C.S Lewis says “We are what we believe we are”. I believe that I’m different from most people. I think about the possibilities of life and being more than what I am now.

Sometimes those thoughts intimidate people. They like living in their comfort zone and don't want anyone to shake things up. I thrive on shaking things up and not knowing what God has in store for me.

Indeed I wake up every morning excited to see what he has planned for me today. I know I am only one person but I'm a child of God and with him all things are possible if you have "FAITH".


When I was in Peru I discovered something about myself. I want a life of significance; I want to change how the world thinks. God has a magnificent plan for my life and I'm going enjoy the ride.


I want to make a difference in this life… To matter… I just need to wait until God shows me the “how” and the “where”…







My heroine will always be my sweet mother...